Selective mutism

My brother had not spoken with my parents for few years, despite living with them all these while. I suspect my brother and I have selective mutism. Selective mutism is the anxiety disorder that makes you unable to speak at certain settings. Growing up, the most frequent trait I am associated with is quiet. I … Continue reading Selective mutism

What I am going to do after going out of psychiatric ward

Improve socially via practice – smile, laugh, make people comfortable Make close friends. Job. Degree. Make my life interesting. Make AI for psychiatrist. Spend 50% time outside. Play Travel Girlfriend Happy outlook – surround with normal people Try to break the envelope – try a new tone, new experience Stop avoiding Do silly things Independent … Continue reading What I am going to do after going out of psychiatric ward

4 days stay at University Malaya Psychiatric Ward

Day 1 and Day 2 I came to University Malaya Medical Center emergency ward at 3am. I am distressed that I cannot socialize in group, loud, fun, spontaneous, felt left out during church fellowship. I waited in the Bilik Lili, a male nurse came and asks me why I’m here and the medicines I am … Continue reading 4 days stay at University Malaya Psychiatric Ward

Psychiatrist visit again: bought a book

Dr. Vincent says that he read my blog post about my chat with pastor. Dr. Vincent says I have to be myself, there are things that cannot be changed, but some can be improved. He says that for example, he sees that other doctors that are more charismatic, he cannot be that, being own self … Continue reading Psychiatrist visit again: bought a book

The things I am happy about this week

I talked more and deeply with parents. My mom used to felt ignored when she talks to me but I now respond to her. Also, I found both of my parents interesting. I shared what music I like (Big Bang, Jay Chou), and my dad shared the old music that he liked. My dad brought … Continue reading The things I am happy about this week

Good things to do to yourself

Shaun, treat yourself better. In case you forgot to treat yourself, remind yourself of ways: Listen to soothing music Take a warm bath. Get a massage. Buy yourself a rose. Go to a pet store and play with the animals. Walk on a scenic path in a park. Visit a zoo. Stop and smell some … Continue reading Good things to do to yourself