Murni Discovery at Aman Suria

Murni Discovery is a modern mamak, with a roof, fan, air condition, and TV. Many young people and families frequent this restaurant. It serves some western and local foods. The thing that strikes me at this restaurant is its menu filled with colorful delicious foods. As well as some special drinks such as “I Love You”, “Poison”, “Traffic Light Special”, “Don’t Worry”, “Be Happy”, etc. I must admit that the menu looks better than the foods taste. The drinks are worth trying though.

My favourite at the restaurant is the Butter Cheese Chicken Alkiev (RM15.90). The chunk of meat is wrapped with layers of chickens. In the center, there is cheesy sauce. It comes with three different sauces and some fries, salad.

Butter Cheese Chicken Alkiev
Butter Cheese Chicken Alkiev

This is me flipping the menu, too many foods to choose, there are more than 10 pages of menu!

Shaun flipping the menu
Shaun flipping the menu

Traffic Light Special (RM6.35: Medium) looks nice, it has three layers, like the traffic light. Poison is better though. All the drinks and foods came with label on them.

Traffic Light Special
Traffic Light Special

This is poison (RM5.30). It tastes heavenly when I first sip it. It is sweet, contains some Nata de coco, lychee, mint leaves, some cucumber, and soda (fizzy taste). Remember to stir it before you drink as the sugar is at the bottom.

Poison drink
Poison drink

Me playing with phone while waiting for foods to arrive.

Traffic Light Special and Poison
Traffic Light Special and Poison

The menu has some crazy naming, “Naan Mozzarella Beckham Special” (RM9).

Menu showing Naan Mozzarella Beckham Special
Menu showing Naan Mozzarella Beckham Special

Basically, a Roti with cheese inside.

Naan Mozzarella Beckham Special
Naan Mozzarella Beckham Special

Fried calamari and chilli sauce (RM8.50).


Murni also has Ramadhan special menu. Ramadhan is a special month for Muslim, and they are allowed to break fast during the evening. This is where the menu comes in. It has some catchy titles for the foods such as “Lord of the Wings”, “Attack on Titan”, “Vitamin Sea”, “Pacific Rim”, “Now You See Me”.

Murni Ramadhan Special menu
Murni Ramadhan Special menu

I ordered a “Vitamin Sea” (RM30), which is a prawn pasta. The noodle is actually maggie mee. The look is very good, big prawns, etc, but the taste is OK.

Vitamin Sea
Vitamin Sea

Roti with ice cream on top!

Roti Fujiyama
Roti Fujiyama

Some drinks with cincau inside.

Jockeying drink
Jockeying drink

Murni Discovery has outlets at SS2, Aman Suria, USJ, Sunway Mentari, Kepong, Bukit Jalil, Bandar Sri Permaisuri, and Shah Alam.



Book review: Cosmic Connection: An Extraterrestrial Perspective by Carl Sagan

Cosmic Connection: An Extraterrestrial Perspective by Carl Sagan
Cosmic Connection: An Extraterrestrial Perspective by Carl Sagan. Source: Goodreads.

I knew about the book from the documentary Cosmos: A Space Odyssey (2014) hosted by Neil Degrasse Tyson. It was a book given by Carl (the author) to Neil during their meeting as a teenager.

The book talks about the gold plaque aboard the spacecraft Pioneer 10, which was designed by Carl Sagan and his wife. There are interesting reactions from people and is told in the book.

There are some interesting discussion on why alien hasn’t visited us (Fermi paradox), the way to search for them, is it wise to search for them, etc.

The search of alien life has to be rid of human chauvinism, alien life may not be similar to life on earth. The book also goes through the journey on how Venus is found out to be a sort of hell like instead of the beautiful planet people onced imagined, this fact is known due to scientific method.

There are some dated scientific fact such as the cause of dissapearance of dinosaur (attributed to climate change, but now known to be caused by meteor), but most of the facts are grounded.

The chapter on starfolk fable is interesting because it showed us how we get complex elements from Hydrogen and Helium. Then how life got started.

The book ends with neutron star/ pulsar and black holes, these were theoretical space objects that scientists had hypothesised which later found out to exists. Pulsars are used as “space candle” to measure distance. And black hole is left to the wonders of the reader as a possible “space station” to traverse the long distance of space.

Rating: 4/5

Big Bang concert at Stadium Merdeka 1 Oct 2016

I went to the South Korean pop group, Big Bang’s concert, I liked listening to their song, so I thought I want to go and see their concert.

There were people selling some merchandise along the way to the entrance. I am not sure if this is real merchandise!

Some merchandise on sale along the entrance
Some merchandise on sale along the entrance.

There were lots of people queuing up, and the walk is slow. After this entrance, there is another entrance to queue.

Lots of people queuing up to enter the stadium
Lots of people queuing up to enter the stadium.

Finally, I entered Stadium Merdeka after more than 40 minutes. The time is 7pm. I bought the RM200+ ticket, which place me at the far end of the stadium, on the right looking towards the center. The sky is still not yet dark when I seated. People are still coming in. I saw people holding the star light stick and light wearable on their head.

Before the concert starts, the sky is still not dark.
Before the concert starts, the sky is still not dark.

The concert starts with Big Bang members playing some games.

Big Bang members playing some ping pong game
Big Bang members playing some ping pong game.

Here are two videos that I have taken, songs playing in the videos are Sober and Fantastic Baby. There are other songs but I have not take video of them.

The concert ended, lights are turned on. People are still waiting to see if there was further performance.

After the concert, the lights turned on, lots of people , then leaving
After the concert, the lights turned on, lots of people , then leaving.

The music at the stadium is a bit different from listening at home, the sound system is very good. I realized one thing, people shout a lot! Mostly girls though.

Not my cup of tea, concert, I just dislike crowds.

Here’s the ticket:

Big Bang Made V.I.P. Tour 2016 ticket at Malaysia
Big Bang Made V.I.P. Tour 2016 ticket at Malaysia

Feel the fear and do it anyway

I will share 5 truths from the book to you:






Truth 4 gives you comfort, because everyone else faced fear when they are doing unfamiliar things. What differentiates those that felt crippling fear and excitement is whether you approach it from position of helplessness or power. Fear faced by everyone is comforting because we are not alone in this (one of the element of self compassion is shared humanity).

Truth 5 resonates with me because I have been avoiding stuffs lately, and the sense of helplessness it caused me made me worse than if I face my fear directly.

What I am going to do after going out of psychiatric ward

  • Improve socially via practice – smile, laugh, make people comfortable
  • Make close friends.
  • Job.
  • Degree.
  • Make my life interesting.
  • Make AI for psychiatrist.
  • Spend 50% time outside.
  • Play
  • Travel
  • Girlfriend
  • Happy outlook – surround with normal people
  • Try to break the envelope – try a new tone, new experience
  • Stop avoiding
  • Do silly things
  • Independent
  • Be good at what you do – blog, program
  • Approach people
  • Join group
  • Enjoy your extrovert time so that you can enjoy your introvert time
  • Read books around people such as coffeeshop and act normal.
  • Talk, making mistakes are crucial to advancement.
  • Get a good role model, or interactions that you can learn from
  • Quiet and soft can be good
  • Good storytelling does not have to be loud
  • You don’t have to be good to everyone, just try your best to have a few that you can laugh at.

4 days stay at University Malaya Psychiatric Ward

Day 1 and Day 2

I came to University Malaya Medical Center emergency ward at 3am. I am distressed that I cannot socialize in group, loud, fun, spontaneous, felt left out during church fellowship. I waited in the Bilik Lili, a male nurse came and asks me why I’m here and the medicines I am taking. Then, the psychiatrist, Dr. Marini came and asks me why I’m here and then talk to my dad privately to tally my account. My dad says the psychiatrist says I have to be admitted to the ward because I may injure myself.

The nurse took my blood and put a blood plug on my hand and I am wheeled to the psychiatric ward. It was 4am. While I am at my bed, in front of me, there’s an uncle. The uncle is a chinese with muslim wife. I slept and woke up at 8am. They served me bread with red bean and butter. Later, they will ask me what I want to eat for lunch and dinner. I changed into the blue patient clothes and the pants are hard to tie.

My neighbours are the chinese alcoholic guy, an indian male about my age, Dinesh, which has Schizophrenia. He always walk around and stops. There are only about 12 patients and some nurses. We can only walk within the red lines at both ends of the ward. The visiting hours are 3pm to 7pm. I try to make friends. Some student doctors talk to me, asking me routine questions. There is a student doctor named Johnny which is friendly, he told me he is an extreme introvert but am flexible, he dislikes orientation also and labeled as asocial but he has his stand. He talks to me for about 2 hours. He spends 80% of the time alone but is “kiasu”, so spends Sunday taking case histories to increase his case history taking skills. He says that he could sit at the bed beside me because I am too normal.

There is also a Chinese student doctor which looks like Dr. Vincent who take histories from me. He looks like an introvert and rarely smiles. My parents brought shampoo, towels, biscuits, colgate, sandals, and some books for me. At night, someone took my blood pressure. There is a room behind which supposedly we can play carom, draw, and stuff.

The chinese muslim guy has alcoholic, which causes delirium, can see hallucination. Professor brought a bunch of students here to observe him.

There are some politics in the ward. Food sharing brough by relatives are pieces of power. Not to mention cigarette. Mental health is defined as the state where you functioning is not impaired. The nurses likes to chat, some laugh a lot. The patients spend time chatting also. The student doctor says I am quite sane.

The nurses here are friendly, learn to small talk like them. I bathe once a day but some people no bath, messy hair.


Day 3

Slept not very well. Knew a friend known as Adidas. He talked to Redzuan (Chinese alcoholic guy). He works at hotel and wife works in this hospital. I borrowed my sweater to him because he was cold. He has bipolar.

A male Indian psychiatrist talks to me. Everyone is unique. Everyone has strengths. Not everyone can be outgoing. Don’t act outgoing, are you being outgoing or acting outgoing? What happens during childhood and now? Didn’t learn adult communication? Feel sad and hopeless most of the time. Don’t like my personality now. Why did I take Ritalin?

Two medical students came and see me. Fourth and third year. I talked about my past quitting or avoiding as coping mechanism. There is activity behind the ward. I like the activity and exercise. The exercise makes me happy.

Day 4

Another student doctor interviews me. I’m considered the most sane person here.

I find student doctor life interesting, they are good at learning at becoming a doctor. Maybe I can bring this spirit to the programmer world.

Redzuan says I treat the student doctors very well after I told him I have social problems and maybe will discharge today.

Here’s what the doctor wrote to my psychiatrist:

“Thank you for seeing the above named who is admitted to our ward on 11/9/16 and treated on autism spectrum disorder with depressed mood.
We had adjusted the medications in the ward to T Brintellix 10mg and T clonezpam 1mg. We are referring him to our psychologist for outpatient and referring him back to you for your expert management for continuation of care.”

Psychiatrist visit again: bought a book

Dr. Vincent says that he read my blog post about my chat with pastor.

Dr. Vincent says I have to be myself, there are things that cannot be changed, but some can be improved. He says that for example, he sees that other doctors that are more charismatic, he cannot be that, being own self is enough. He says he likes to deep talk too.

He says that I have some Asperger traits such as emotional sensitivity, lack of emotional expression. Being  mistreated as an aspie is not my fault, sometimes its the society’s ignorance of mental conditions.

He says that I have more expression today. I think because I tried to be light and fun. I also have to focus on non verbal communication.

He showed me a book “My Battle With Depression” by local author Irene Tan and sold it to me for RM10.

"My Battle with Depression" by Irene Tan
“My Battle with Depression” by Irene Tan

Chat with pastor

Today I had a good chat with Pastor. I told him about psychiatrist saying I have asperger, pastor says its just a label, you still have to move on with life.

And he says that social don’t need so many rules. If you want to improve socially, you have to go to real social situation, not practicing in front of computer.

Also, he says that I spent way too much time in front of computer, need to spend more time social with real people, not online chat.

He says that the reason why my social skills are not very good is because maybe my dad and mom’s relationship are not that good or I spent too much time in front of computer.

I could also use some humour in conversation. I have low self confidence and no initiate topic. He also point out that I care too much of what other people think.

He also said that I don’t look like someone with autism (自闭症).

Since I am behind academically from my friends, I felt self doubt, but pastor says its not too late, he started preaching at age 30, now with 6 years experience.

At last, he said I can visit him once a week if I want to.

The things I am happy about this week

  • I talked more and deeply with parents. My mom used to felt ignored when she talks to me but I now respond to her. Also, I found both of my parents interesting.
  • I shared what music I like (Big Bang, Jay Chou), and my dad shared the old music that he liked.
  • My dad brought me to two very good banana leaf Indian restaurant. We went for movies, MATTA fair, cybercafe, random places.
  • I started to smile in front of my parents.
  • I verbalize my problems (such as overthinking) to my parents and they gave good advice such as stop thinking about it in a caring tone. I feel like I can depend on them for help.
  • I lists out all the friends I currently have, and I realised that I do have lots of friends. My friends liked my posts, I always thought they disliked me after meetups. They also offer to have future meetup with me.
  • I also know who I want to be, more light hearted, express more emotion, open to experience, spend time have fun with family and friends.
  • I also want to thank my doctor and therapist for various help they offer when I seek their help.
  • And I decide to go back to my old church tomorrow, its been 6 years, some may have forgotten me, some may be surprised to see me, some may be happy that I am back, I miss them.

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