Now, I do not want to believe in a God. I will not meet pastor to talk about this, I do not believe it will solve the problem, they are more successful and holy than I do. I would not want to change because of their advices. They probably hate me too. Next time, I will not trust a christian, they are wolf in a sheep clothing, they will never accept who you truly are, they will only accept what the world wants. I wonder how long have I been telling myself that things I see is not what it seems, the things are what it seems, and I am too wrong to ignore them.